feelin so tired -.-

hmm hw shd i start...hmm...ok 1st sry4nt bloggin yesterday...hahas...nw i've cm2blog agn lohs...feelin so tired cuz dere r 4days of 8am n only 1day 1pm...many projects n reports r comin...worst is hv2create sumthin4disabled pppl...aiyo...hw wd i kw...i always so lazy2tink of ideas...any1can giv me any ideas...cuz hv2do it4sem proj...arghhh...damnn -.- next week need2giv idea n start developin liao leiis...die liao lahs haizz...

1st day of sch gt homework liao...walao...haizz...3rd yr reali v stress siah...bt lucky e homework is comm skill n i alr hv sumthin in mind2 write abt lohs...else hw2pass up homework next mon...haiz...den 2day gt dss homework..stil need2buy purple color tb lohs...stil rem yr1buy 1 stp maths bk so expensive den bo use de...den nw wan2buy another duno gt use de book anots...haizz...2homework liao bt hven done any... aiyo die liao larzz...duno can make it anot lohss...feel so no confident liao...cuz all sub was nth im interested in...bt mus die die grad lohs else v wasted haizz...

duno y gt sem proj lohs...alr finish fyp liao stil gt another proj...kaoz...most scared is stp vb...damn la...1st lesson alr duno wad teachin liao hw2do tutorials lohs...another stp programmin i hate...bt no choice lohs hv2learn else cant get over it...help ahh...any1can teach me vb...seems so easy bt hw cm i so stp duno hw -.- ...need2work hard liao...headache headache...everyday also so tired...haizz...erp...dss n duno wad all i duno de...hw siah...mayb i only gt interest in comm skill lohs...hahas

nw while bloggin im tinkin hw2do e dss homework without stp tb lohs...haiz...nw jus playin game n relax lohs...llisten music...haizz...

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2day don feel lik bloggin -.-

1st day of sch

time2blog blog agn liao...hmm...2day was my 1st day of sch n it starts at8am...hahas as usual i wake up at 6.15am....prepared n go sch lohs n guess wad...i reach sch damn early at 7.30siah....alone sittin outside e classroom haha until almost8 den many ppl come....hahas always so early reach sch also duno4wad...guess its a habit cant change liao...hahas...tired tired man...1st lesson was stp visual basics...walao die le lohs...duno even c b4...hw am i gona cope -.-...damn...need2work very hard man!!!

hvin a break at11am to1pm...hahas 2hrs gt nth2do so acc my frd go buy books...bt after reachin dere it was damn hell crowded so we decided later later den go grab e books...so ard 12plus den we went2hv our lunch lohs...after dat is com skills lesson...walao e teacher took so long den cm...we waited so long outside e class n a lecturer saw us outside he asked us2wait inside e other room...almost reeachin2pm finally e teacher came n we started e lesson...well comm skills is quite an interesting sub i guess compared2other crap sub...hahas...

after comm skill is another stp sub ERP again...walao waste time lohs...e teacher said sign attendance den can go off liao...hahas cuz he say hven attend lect so cant do tutorial...lucky release early ahs...cuz i was reali beri tired le...b4 attendin last lesson...i recieve his sms sayin dat he wil confirm wif me whether can go my sch fetch me anot...i din hope4much cuz same things always happen...sighs...wen wil i ever b treated nicely huh...i reali wonder o.o

jus as wad i expected...i recieve sms at 5.59saying dat hv extra work agn...y always lik dis...jus wad m i huh?....i reali wish2kw e ans...sighs..always being neglected...y huh...y did i done wron2deserve all dis crap?nw i jus woke up jiu start bloggin le...cuz i hv no1to share so i cd jus write all my tots n feelings on my diary...im so sick agn...reali wish i can sick n finish it off at once den i wdnt always feel so terrible liao...haiz...


wo dao di suan shen mo???

another hapi day ^^

2day abt 7am jiu yao wake up liao cuz2day is my mum n sis goin overseas n we r goin2sent flight...hahas...7plus ppl jiu disturb n wake us up liao cuz my cousin wil be fetchin us at 8.30am lohs...dere r4aunts n 1sis goin overseas to enjoy demselves4a holiday...as mani things hapen so its time dat dey go relax n fang song yi xia zi ji =D...dey wil be goin abt 2weeks ba...hope dey wil enjoy demselves ba =x...


we reach airport at abt 10plus n every1was hungry so we2find food court2hv breakfast bt who kws...dat damn bloody food court so far away so in e end dey chose2hv breakfast at mac...i jus ate a sausauge burger n a cup of tea...hahas it was ard 11plus le...time4dem2tk e flight liao so we sent dem in n we wave goodbye...after sendin flight...cousin sent us home n it was only 12noon...hahas imagine hw early dat stp flight is...afterall it was e first time i sent flight hahah cuz last time my young sis overseas i also nv go sent flight...hahas...


wen i reach hm things r asusual agn lohs....on my laptop n start playing my lappy...meanwhile i was tinkin...tot i suppose2giv sum1an ans bt hw cm....well mayb...i also duno...hahas...so i jus carry on playing my game lohs...suddenly my bro said he wan eat pizza...guess wad...he v dodohead lei....tell me duno hw2order -.-...kaoz only kw hw2eat duno hw2order...aiyoyo cant believe it...it was my aunt treat cuz 2day oct18 is his bd...hahas so we ordered buy1gt1 free de pizza n sweet honey drumsticks...hahas yum yum =x


here comes e hapi part of e day liao...while waitin4e pizza2cm...guess wad happen?....hahas it was ah boi sms me lei...hehe always saw his sms at9 de...bt2day special....he sms in e afternoon...hahas very hapi recievin his sms lohs =x after smsin awhile i told him i wan nap nap liao cuz later wake upp need2blog...hahas his reply v funi lohs...bt nvm...den i replied lata wake up den sms him norh =D...opps nw i wake up agn bt hven sms him hehe...nvm let him wait wait awhille la...hehe =x



yi lun shun feng mum n sis =p

wad is my final decision

after a bad moood day...time2blogggin agn...hmmm...lets c....after1mth of consideration....time2come up wif an ans wich is my final decision...i hv been tinkin past1mth...tinkin whether shd i go or shd i stay...tml oct18is e day dat i mus cm up wif a final decision alr...so nw while bloggin...i hv alr thought it thru...after listenin2my mum...aunt...cousin...n frds...laopo...kung....i hv cm up wif an ans...bt stil cant be so confirmed yet...cuz i hv tot of many things...sighs...

mayb i shdnt go becuz firstly i don kw him so well n he once done me wron....secondly if i go dere...i wil be so lonely wifout frds n relatives... thirdly i don even kw e location well n as4me im a lu chi....even in singapore i also wil get lost...wad if i go dere n lost n nv cm bak agn?lastly most importantly i hv a fear dat bad things wil hapen2me cuz i heard my frds n laopo tell me abt come bad things dat happen2deir frd...bt frankly saying...i do wish2go2a new environmen bt dere are so much fear i had n im jus so weak2chen shou if things happen...i hv been tinkin n tinkin...

is nt dat i don luv him bt jus dat my fear n my timidness and my negative tot...i reali cant imagined if sumthin mentioned by my frds n laopo wd jus hapen...i might jus cant tk it n end my life...im jus so negative-tinkin....bt i always hoped dat i can be xing fu...so nw i reali tot of droppin e idea of migrating becuz i cdnt assure anything....i cdnt assured dat he wdnt abandon me as in sgp he cdnt even spare his time4me so wad makes me tink dat at sdyney he wil hv time4me...i reali tink alot...i reali hope we cd sit dw n tok....i reali hope he wd spent more time wif me so dat wen he suggest...i don need2tink so much bt haizzz...

i hv been hurt agn n agn so dis time i reali wana make a correct decision....til nw my mind stil v confused...bt4sure i wil tell him wad i hv been tinkin and c wad he hv2say....if wad he says is wad i wanted den i might change my mind...bt if wad he says is nt wad i wanted den i wd wish him find his happiness ba...


FINAL DECISON STIL IN PROCESS OF TINKIN....

reali angry day!!!

time2bloggin agn...hahas...b4 dat was quite a smooth day until play mj time....reali damn angry lohs...bt i shall nt say da details liao ba...cuz reali damn angry...haix....2day don feel like bloggin liao la...damn!!!!no mood at all liaos....

tirin n suay day -.-

woohoo time2bloggie agn liao hahas =x...2day is a beri tiring day4me siah....stil rem i said las9need2wait my baobeii charge finish rite...haha n yeah i waited until 6am...hahas...den slp until10am jiu ppl wake me up le n said wan go buy daily necessarities lohs...walao ppl only slp lik less den 3hrs jiu yao wake up n go shop shop lohs...walao...tink i rather play mj den go stp shoppin lahs -.- play whole9also nvm la...bt if wan me shoppin...i rather stay at hm n play com...hehe...

bt heng lahs....lucky gt car sit la...else wan me go shoppin...rather u kill me la...hahas...10am jiu go hv breakfast...hahas walao u kw la i also don tk breakfast de...bt bo bian la...so jus go n eat lo...n guess wad...mus be i don hv eat breakfast de xi guan so after dat jiu stomache la...kaoz...duno y so suay lorrr....dats y i always also dun wan eat breakfast de...hahas..nw u kw da reason le mahs...hahas...only1day tk breakfast only....my stomach buay happi liao nor -.-...kakaka NO BREAKFAST IS BEZ =X

stil rem even gt car convenient bt all of us r lu chi...hahahs all duno directions de...keep turnin round n round den can reach destination...hahahas v funi rite...sitin in e car of cuz shiok la...hehe...bt dey keep ask me4directions den i jiu duno liao la....hahas i seem so useless horrr....bt bo bian la....im stp de mahs...hahahs....finally we reach marsiling our destination liao....once reached dere...dey start goin2sheng siong n buy wadeva is needed...walao lik goin2pao lu liddat...hahas...bt all is daily use de lahs....so nt called waste lo =x...mum n sis goin overseas liao so we mus zhi sheng zhi mie....wahahahaha!!!

nw tok abt my suay day...angry wif my stp brainless bro....alr told him we bought many things n ask him bring a trolley dw den he beri stubborn empty handed cm dw wen we reached home...walao...so stp lohs -.-...dere is lik10bottles of softlan...4packets of xi yi fen and mani mani heavy things2carry...nb....nv c b4 such stubborn ppl...in e end got2carry all hm lo...den damn it...i gt injured my arm like canot move sia...walao...super suay day lohs....damn it....all my freaking brainless bro fault!!!



ANGRY MAN....DAMN IT!!!